Bad choices and turns in life I have taken, that in the aftermath, no amount of tears and grief can seem to erase or change. An all too familiar "Sorry" in my hands seem to be all that I can offer in regret.Then...I wait.
In silence...I wait before You, not daring to ask for more, but yet a stirring and longing in my heart that can't be denied causes me to stay and linger around.
Because deep in me...are questions. Burdened strainings from my heart to You...
Can I dream again? Do I have the right to? Can You restore what the locusts have eaten? I'm not asking for restoration of the gift that I spoiled. I'm asking, hoping, for the restoration of my heart...to You.
The throne that I've snatched from You...will You take it again?
The pair of feet that have been calloused and dirtied from the wayward path it has treaded upon..would you wash it again?
My hands which have grown weary from all the hard gripping of things in my life, would You strengthen for Your purpose once again?
Would You fill with the hope of Your faithfulness, in the heart that has become disillusioned from the disappointments and reality of the insufficiency of others and myself?
The heart and mind that has became heavy laden with the issues around, would You still it once again?
Can I be a man after Your heart once again?
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"We worked hard all night and caught nothing."Luke 5:5 NASB
Do you have any worn, wet, empty nets?
Do you know the feeling of a sleepless, fishless night? Of course you do. For what have you been casting?
Solvency? "My debt is an anvil around my neck..."
Faith? "I want to believe, but..."
Healing? "I've been sick so long..."
A happy marriage? "No matter what I do..."
I've worked hard all night and caught nothing.
You've felt what Peter felt. You've sat where Peter sat. And now Jesus is asking you to go fishing. He knows your nets are empty. He knows your heart is weary. He knows you'd like nothing more than to turn your back on the mess and call it a life.
But he urges, "It's not too late to try again."
See if Peter's reply won't help you formulated your own. "I will do as You say and let down the nets" (v. 5).
from Next Door Savior
by Max Lucado
