Woah....what a long day man. Weariness surging through my body now man...but somehow, glad that I'm through it.Thank God for the nice, quiet start for the morning. Not rushed, but a chilled, leisure breakfast at 'Cottage Pies'...nice friendly boss they have there.
With the densely mind saturating week in hindsight, it felt really great to be able to just slow things down, reflect and take things in better perspective, to chew through them in a non-pressured environment.... and of course best of all.....with coffee!
Coffee, some assorted chicken pies...nice can?Got to church for the youth band prac. Hmmm...things felt abit 'here and there'. Wonder how we can make the learning and things tighter. Guess really need to consistently seek Him about it...to lead this group to the place He has in mind, to impart not just technical music skills, but also worship itself, and life impartation. Looking at it....it seems like a different form and a varied degree of discipleship, is it not? =)
Prac for tomorrow's service followed. Tasked by yeepeng to lead today's session. Honestly, didn't really know what to expect of it. Did whatever little preparations I could along the way throughout the week....which certainly didn't feel enough.
Standing infront with a guitar, leading the prac and co-leading the songs....it felt kinda uncomfortable. Too long an absence from leading a whole team based worship team? Maybe. I felt...I was trying to do too many things at one go..espcially things I've lost touch on for quite abit. But more so...the feeling of inadequetness after the journey I've taken after this few years. It's definitely changed me. Sighh....how I long for that child-likeness once again.
So after doing the 1st 2 songs, I went over to yeepeng and told her how I felt. Glad I did. Felt much better and more at ease facilitating the lead from behind at the drums....in a sense.
Thank God for all that was done today...really nothing more than a gracious providence from Him. How will the path be like from here on? I don't know.
I don't know if it's a challenge for me to be out of my comfort zone. But I believe it's not really time for me to carry so many things...if this is to be the route for me in time to come.
May the path be journeyed on by a worshipping heart that obeys.
