Mind's kinda in a blank though. The way things have progressed and flowed. Though I have not much control over all of it throughout, there had been this unsaid, undescribable peace within my heart....the assurance, not that I would get the job, but that He holds everything.
And I'm thankful for this morning.
Managed to wake up early, and reached clementi pretty early. Somehow, I decided to change my plan about getting some food, and instead just settled for a quick mocha drink to fill the empty stomache and alert the mind, before making my way to the company.
With time to pass, I decided to make some final adjustments and readying my mind in the toilet. In the toilet, to my horror...the belt I was wearing was about to break at some part. Oh man...if I hadn't arrive earlier and gone straight ahead with the meeting...and the belt breaks during the interview.....I can go learn how to flip pratas already! [don't ask me what that random statement means, cause I don't know...it just came =D ]
Called the lady who interviewed me and overall IC of my post to notify of my arrival. I've got to say...I really feel this sense of comfortability with her. She just gives you the feeling of closeness, like a relative, very approachable and friendly. As we talked on our way up to the interview room, I was pretty surprised that she continued to brief me on the post, and the important points and key notes to take note of during the interview. Didn't expect her to share it with me.
It was after the whole thing that I realised that she and her colleagues had already hoped that I would be selected. It seems that they pretty much liked my attitude and all.
The overall interview went pretty ok. Serious and firm, but there was smiling and all in between, so it wasn't as choking as imagined. One thing though...after the boss's sharing and explanation of the post's requirements and committment, it did make me question whether I could handle the role.
Yup...it will be a pretty big role to fill in, given my experience. Managing the project...there's the fear that I won't be able to fill the shoes.
In regards to the official application I had to do at the end, I'm really thankful for the help offered by the lady IC, where they even considered my application for school next year.
Such graciousness. I'm really grateful for the flow of events, His presence and keeping, the un-merited favour of the people there. Even if I didn't get the job, I'm still thankful for the experience orchestrated by Him along the way...really thankful.
So there it is...a multitude of words, but I can't really pinpoint my feelings exactly....like a rush and mix of everything...woahhhh....
I have my thankfulness and gratefulness, I have my fear and uncertainty.
All I give unto You, as to Your glory, and look to You for the days ahead, through the highs and lows...
A testimony, not of how a man found a job by his own luck,
but of a providence, coated with unmerited grace.
but of a providence, coated with unmerited grace.
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[In Over My Head] - Reuben Morgan, 'World Through Your Eyes'
The world is all changing
I can't believe my own eyes
The moment I think I’ve figured it out,
I'm flawedI'm not so sure
Of myself this timeI'm in over my head
And all I have is you now
I'm in over my head
And all I am is holding on to youI can't see the way now
But this one thing I know
When every thing’s changing
You're still closer than a friend
And so I will bow
And my heart will trustI'm in over my head
And all I have is you now
I'm in over my head
And all I am is holding on to you
I'll never let you goI'm in over my head
And all I have is you now
I'm in over my head
And all I have, all I have,
is holding on to you