Or would you take restoration, with your concern and longing being more for the situation/relationship to be salvaged or restored?
It doesn't take much to intellectually choose restoration....we know it sounds, and is the better good of the 2. But you would feel the pinch, to be asked to surrender and give up being justified would you? At least I would.
With the culmination of the things that happened in my life and the people around...I find a part of me that's ever ready to choose 'Justification' from the menu.
When efforts and struggles go unnoticed, when words are not taken for what they were meant, when accusation comes along, when pointing fingers are offered rather than a shoulder to cry on....my heart seems ever ready to cry "No fair!!"
But...what is? I don't suppose the person born disabled find it fair, nor a child losing his parents before he grows up. Not especially for someone to die so that others might live. And I believe if everything was to be made fair, I don't think I stand much of a chance as well. Yet it is so natural for my flesh to seek vindication, for its own.
But I guess I'm slowly being tired down by that cry for a fairer treatment...or at least for things to make sense. You'd come to realise that it wears you down...and closes you in. If gone unchecked, things become bitter within you, relationships are all affected, and most of all, a channel towards Him is closed up. For the sake of all, restoration should be the better choice..though it requires me to sacrifice that "right", if it's mine at all.
Just as to a wound, 'Justification' seeks to explain it, diagnose it, and come to a settlement of who inflicted it, its severity and whether was it deserved. But all this while, the wound goes untreated...and pretty soon...it becomes worser than it was.
'Restoration'? Nevermind the method used to cause the wound or the details and all..what matters is the covering and healing of the wound for all, so that the area is recovered and strengthened.
What would it take to learn? Being weary and defeated?
And so as painful and hard as it is, it would be wise for me to surrender it, and acknowledge that He knows better than I. So teach me once again, the things that really matter to me, to You.
- weary and defeated
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[Nothing Without You] - Bebo Norman
Take these hands and lift them up
For I have not the strength to praise You near enough
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
Take my voice and pour it out
Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing without You
Take my body and build it up
May it be broken as an offering of love
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing
But I love You
With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
With all the strength that I can find
Take my time here on this earth
And let it glorify all that You are worth
For I am nothing,
I am nothing without You
