"You are the Christ, the Son of the living God."
"Even though all may fall away because of You, I wil never fall away."
"I do not know the Man!"
Words from the very same lips of Peter. One moment proclaiming worship and unfaltering loyalty, the next, denial and disacknowledgement.
Was it all just momentuous feelings of emotional highs? Nope, I believe they come from within his heart as well. But as what many people say, Peter seems to be one who's quick to shoot off what came to his mind, not withheld by the people's reactions around him, but boldly speaking his mind.
There's a need for that I'd say, for a bold and unfazed sharing of the gospel and proclamation of the truth. But I guess the question is, do we fully process the meaning and consequences of the words? Do we understand the weightage of the things said, decided and done with our choices?
I find myself in it at times. Swinging like a pendulum, from highs to lows just like that.
Before I proclaim His majesty and sovereignity, I need to know and understand what I'm saying, and how it affects me. After all, His glory is not just to be casually said and mentioned about...it's to be worshipped and reverred, honored with a lifestyle that it deserves.
Before I give up and cave in to my fleshly responses of weariness, to deny and dis-acknowledge Him, to say I'm giving up...I need to know why and what it means. Am I saying I'm not getting what I deserve, that His grace is insufficient, that things are beyond His control, that He made a bad, wrong choice with my current place and situation?
Yes there will be times to surrender and give up on certain things. But before that step is taken, I've come to realise that it would be wise to consider what my words and actions mean, and what are their consequences...I, for one, would dread to find myself on a journey that I come to regret taking, at the end of the day...
..so as a note to myself, do consider, or if I can use a simpler word, imagine, what it means for me to attribute and acknowledge glory and honour unto Him, as well as the ramifications of giving up and surrendering..at any time.
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[Imagine me without You] - Jaci Velasquez
As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you
It's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you
When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you
I can't imagine me without you
The old broken melody, blowing through the trees of Eden.
They say the heart of man is too far gone to save... yet in the quaint humdums of the neighbourhood, in the midst of gains and losses, joys and heartaches, pleasure and pain, friends and foes, battles lost and won, you can just hear that quiet whisper, of an amazing grace....upon this unworthy life.