As far as I know, it'll involve making a trip up to our clients at Malaysia side. I don't know man...things just seem to lead to one another. In fact, a proper closing period for the project would take up to another 3-4 months. Inevitably, the question of my study pursue would crop up. Funny how it seems to be the point of it all that I'm going through now, is to have no firm grounding for me to stand on or take comfort in. More about trusting, than self assurance I guess.
Anyway, with the Christmas season just around the corner, had a surprise little package on my workdesk when I came in one of the mornings.
Bag o' little goodiesPart of the company's little quirks....giving such small tokens during special seasons and occasions. Which reminds me...I've finally done something to settle the orange which had been lying in the corner of my desk for the past few months....after I receieved it during 1 of those company's 'Healthy lifestyle weeks'.
Also received an early christmas package from my colleague. After showing a surprised look (a positive one I hope) at my coloured hair when she came into the office, she walked over and suddenly handed me this giant plastic bag from Converse.
"For you!", she beams.
Oh myyy...a pleasant surprise indeed! Woah...I was really touched by the gesture. She thought it would be good for me to have something since I wouldn't be receiving any company year-end bonus like them.
I wouldn't suppose a slingy from Converse to be some modestly priced stuff. But more than the gift itself, it was her intention that really touched me. I don't know what to say, but only to echo what I mentioned at the beginning of my contract work: Thank God for the providence of such colleagues who bless.
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Saw yet another news of a sudden death of a man, this time from heart failure. The man basically just collapsed while in the midst of cooking at his food stall. That's the 6th case in the recent spat of sudden death cases. Previous 5 cases were all death in sleep.
Similar to the other cases, this man, was just a clean-living hawker...non smoking or drinking, and a medical checkup just 3 months prior which had given him a good, healthy all-clear.
And now this.
It gives me a sombre reminder in the midst of it all....
..yes I am still thinking through on my further studies. My future work life and field is still unclear as compared to most. I still have many unresolved matters and inter-personal relation issues at hand. I have yet to work out and sort through many things...
...but, what if by His divine appointment, I don't wake up tomorrow?
Would it all still matter as much? What would my final thoughts be if I'm granted conciousness in my final moments? Would I be at peace?
It kinda strikes me to really respect the time and moments He has graciously given to me, and I may not always have the "time" I often claim in advance, when my response to things I should resolve fast is..."later".
I guess at the end, it's not how long the seasons last...but where I stand, in the midst of the seasons.