I wasn't really pining excitedly for it everyday, and checking the mailbox every 5 minutes or something...but yeah, there was this slight, half-hearted anxiety about it. But more so, I wasn't really hoping for anything. Infact, there were moments where I actually found ease within by imagining that I would be rejected by the school....no worries about money and time then...no worries.
But when I saw the envelope from Nafa sitting there on the table...I stoned at it for a few seconds...before taking it. Hmmm....my dad showed even more excitement and emotions than me man.
"Eh....your letter leh. From Nafa ah?? So how, how how is it?? Got in??? Huhh haven't open?? Open leh open leh. Open and see if you got in leh."
"..orh." =S
Chill man chill haha. I took to open it. Honestly, my mind was in a blank....and from the thickness of the envelope, I roughly guessed.
Yep, they said yes, and I got in.
Strangely, I didn't feel much within me, except for thankfulness. It seems my heart has really been split between wanting and not wanting the school. I hope for the chance to learn and explore this field, but not the finance and troubling issues.
So now the door has been opened. Do I step into it, and face the fears of going back to books again, to study with people younger than me, and hand over the money and 4 years of my life?
Later for that...but first, thank You.
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How fast it is. Tomorrow....tomorrow it shall be.
My last day of work.
Time to say bye...to the office (but not to the work yet.... =S )
Most of all....bye, to friends.
:)