I wonder too, at times....how would it have been for Judas Iscariot, if he had lived on?
I believe...if he had chosen forgiveness, he would have been as fiery an apostle, as Paul. How could he not...having his blood-money stained hands washed. Such guilt, when released and forgiven...can change one's life forever.
But that same terrible guilt, if left in the closet, choking and crushing on the back.....how does one live with it? Perhaps that's why Judas hung himself. Perhaps he considered and thought about the possibility of just moving on with life...and saw it impossible to do that, stopping short of considering the other alternative.
A pity.
Just as those who find themselves constantly looking back to the unchangeable past that's gone, not realising the future that's being traded away in the process.
Pity.
