Had been wanting to blog and post about the weeks past....but, haven't been able to do so.
Memories are best looked back with joy and all, and I guess I just can't do it at the moment.
It's been a shattering week of quietness. What that means? No idea man....but I just don't know what to say as well. Probably why I haven't been talking much as well.
Sigh...I realised all over again that it sucks being rejected by a little girl, although they probably don't understand as much for their age (I hope). Somehow, the rejection just struck me...about how I felt about myself.
Anyway there was a talk about mistakes today. Such timing. It's You I suppose?
To be able to trade yesterday's heartaches away.....I would want that. Guess it's time to reflect upon the things shared today.
But for now....to trade our shattered yesterdays...
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I don't suppose you guys know about this band, Trading Yesterday. Started by the keyboardist/backup vocalist, David Hodges who left Evanesence and started this christian band. But they're changing the band name again...hope they retain their sound though, really love it alot. If you want some background, click here.
Love this song...how it kinda embody brokeness and hope within...
[Shattered] - Trading Yesterday
Yesterday I died; tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide beyond believing
To know why hope dies
And losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
But the silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown
And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we call home
Passing the graves of the unknown
As reason clouds my eyes with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
A reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
With love gone for so long
And this day's ending
Is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold
And I've lost who I am, (i'm waiting)
and I can't understand (and fading)
Why my heart is so broken, (and holding)
rejecting your love, (love) without, (onto these tears)
love gone wrong; lifeless words carry on (i am crying)
But I know, all I know's that the end's beginning (i'm dying tonight)
who I am from the start, (i'm waiting)
take me home to my heart (and fading)
Let me go and I will run, (and holding)
I will not be silent, (silent) all this time (onto these tears)
spent in vain; wasted years wasted gain (i am crying)
All is lost but hope remains and this war's not over (i'm dying tonight)
There's a light, there's a sun (i'm waiting...)
taking all these shattered ones
To the place we belong (i am waiting...)
and His love will conquer all
Yesterday I died; tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The old broken melody, blowing through the trees of Eden.
They say the heart of man is too far gone to save... yet in the quaint humdums of the neighbourhood, in the midst of gains and losses, joys and heartaches, pleasure and pain, friends and foes, battles lost and won, you can just hear that quiet whisper, of an amazing grace....upon this unworthy life.