Sunday, May 11, 2008

Sorry for everything.

I know it hasn't been easy all these years....I haven't been exactly a role model of a son. And if it pains me to think of the things I've done over the years, how much more it must be so for you.

You are really God's blessing upon me. All these years of pouring your time and energy into my life, makes me wonder how much has been left for yourself. The many times you come back to show your love and concern, despite my response. Though you don't know, you paint a picture of God's giving love to me.

Do you know, people has commented that your son makes good presentations, and can express himself well? Yet, the number of sorrys and thank yous from me, are too few to mention.

But I know, words don't suffice. I want my life to be a blessing to you, not a burden. I know it's been frustrating, and worrying on your side. I promise, just a few days more, and I'll spend time with you, and give a treat. Not out of festive obligation, but cause I want to. Somehow, things over the years have numbed your son down, and he really sucks at the language of love now. I only hope it's not too late to try harder now. To try to express, that I love you.

For all that was done, and unknown to me, thank you.

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[One Heartbeat At A Time] - Steven Curtis Chapman



You're up all night with a screaming baby
You run all day at the speed of life
And every day you feel a little bit less
Like the beautiful woman you are

So you fall into bed when you run out of hours
And you wonder if anything worth doing got done
Oh, maybe you just don't know
Or maybe you've forgotten

You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile
Oh, you, you may not see it now
But I believe that time will tell
How you, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time

With every "I know you can do it"
Every tear that you kiss away
So many little things that seem to go unnoticed
They're just like the drops of rain over time
They become a river

And you, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile
Oh, you, you may not see it now
But I believe that time will tell
How you, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
How you're changing the world
You're changing the world

You, you are changing the world
One little heartbeat at a time
Making history with every touch and every smile
Oh, you, you may not see it now
But I believe that time will tell
How you, you are changing the world
Oh, I believe that you
You are changing the world
One little heartbeat
At a time

And you're changing the world