my heart is Spoken For..

The night tonite seemed especially dark ah? Probably due to the fact that school is starting tomorrowww. Oh the sorrowww. =(

Haha, I'm actually cool with school opening, just not that ready to dive back into the mountainous workload. And as if I'm not reminded enough....look what popped out of the msn chat window last night....

Yaaa....as if I needed more reminders. ...come articulate your passion at nafa! I just hope I'll still be able to articulate my limbs by the end of sem haha. =S

But alright, it's gonna start. I just wanna hold on and be reminded of Your grace and mercy upon me. Luck or ability didn't bring me through those tough moments, You did. So I just wanna open up my heart, and my eyes, to yet another season of witnessing the reality of Your presence at work around me each day, sustaining me.

Help me to always give thanks. =)

Go pack your waterbottles and lunchboxes boys and girls, it's time for school.

Just back from the wake of Michael's mum.

The news just came out of nowhere. But it was definitely all the more so for him and his family. I only saw his mum once in my life...that was some years back....that night when I popped over to his house to discuss about some stuff. It was a hi-bye encounter with his mum.

I can't even recall how she looks like now. But, this particular wake tonight just left me....hit.

I suppose it's because of that letter. The family gave a letter writeup by his brother, detailing his memory and view of his mum, and what happened on the day of her passing. It was so difficult a letter for me to read. As I read...I tried to picture what were going through their minds when it happened....what were their expressions and reactions. I mean....how does one react when it just happens with no warning?

And then I put myself in his shoe. I don't know....I think, I would force myself to be strong to react, because of my love and concern. But if the unthinkable aftermath were to come....I think I would be shattered. Would I still be able to go around, smiling and serving?

I'm not ready. I know it's inevitable for the day to come...but I'm just not strong enough to take it. Because they're not ready for it as well. If only....I could have done better..

God, help me not to forsake praying for them. Please, show me what I have to give and do, and let me heed it with all I have. Because God, I don't think I'll be able to live with the pain and regret. Help me.

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i'm tired. cos' i really did try my best. i just don't have the energy to handle them anymore

Woah. 2009 is actually here. Guess I better get down to posting all those long overdue pics before it gets too busy for me again. So before I say anything, I'm gonna post a multi parts post on the things gone by for the year end.

First up, buttie's fyp. =)

escape!

the fyp project's theme

a wall-ful of cutesy stuff =S

everyone wanna pose with miss cutesy

everyone's hidden ambition on being a great sew-er (sewer!),
hence the fascination with the video tutorial...

we were forc....invited to try our hands at sewing a christmas sock for the in-house competition hohh

you can see how enthusiatic we all were! especially a certain famous white person..

you can just see the stress on sarah's face having to work next to me ah =D

ooh everyone's getting serious eh

especially me! this was the day i realised my innate ability to sew!
whooo, didn't know i could do that! =D

rach seem to like cowboys alot ah? i think she dressed as a cowgirl for '07 christmas party...and now, her cowboy themed sock. it looks really cool ah

BUT not as cool as moi's! a reddy whale shaped sock with a sensitive gold heart =D

it even works as a earring if you can stand the smell =S

there it is, smally and puny hanging on the tree! strangely, everything else around it looks so lifeless

yep yep. congrats to buttie on the major step towards grad!
=)

..you know....you've been running on empty inside, over the past year.
but i, i know your heart, and its desire to do what's right. i see it.
and this year ahead, it will be a year of refreshment, and restoration for you.
it will not be a year of failure...

God, you know the road ahead of me.
i only ask that You would hold me close,
and keep me on the path, no matter what.
even for the times i complain and sulk and bemoan,
be patient with me, and have mercy,
for i know and see only so much.
You know better than i.

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Loaded with Love

“He…loads me with love and mercy.”
Psalm 103:4

It’s time to let God’s love cover all things in your life. All secrets. All hurts. All hours of evil, minutes of worry.

The morning you awoke in the bed of a stranger? His love will cover that. The years you peddled prejudice and pride? His love will cover that. Every promise broken, drug taken, penny stolen. Every cross word, cuss word, and harsh word. His love covers all things.

Let it. Discover along with the psalmist: “He…loads me with love and mercy.” Picture a giant dump truck full of love. There you are behind it. God lifts the bed until the love starts to slide. Slowly at first, then down, down, down until you are hidden, buried, covered in his love.

“Hey, where are you?” someone asks.

“In here, covered in love.”

a Max Lucado devotional,
Jan 4th 2009

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